Frustrations

Okay So I have a wonderful friend Kimmy, who I only know online. We met in a pagan chat room six years back and still keep in contact with each other. I love my Kimmy very much so and she always makes me laugh and was there for me through some pretty harsh breakups. Then there's this guy who I met working at a call center back when I lived in South Carolina. Pretty good friend has talked me through some rough times, but has a thing for pictures apparently. Over the last couple years he's been pretty aggressively requesting pictures of me. He finally stopped when I got upset about it and told him that I didn't feel right about it.

Fast-forward to this week. Kimmy, and the guy and I have been joking around on a few of my statuses. Then He friend requests her, and she accepts. He requests pictures, she's married she gets pissed. He asks me about it and I tell him, you don't request pictures from a married woman. What was his reply??? "LoL I didn't mean of her.."

Okay so you go to a friend of mine and ask her for pictures of me because I refuse to give you any?? How does that even appear to be okay? Not to mention the fact that I'm perfectly happy in a relationship myself and would never risk it for you to see some nice cleavage there buddy. (And yes my cleavage is phenomenal.) But on top of that he's engaged!

Quick rewind. A couple of years ago, he and I went out on a date. I thought we had a good time, but then I moved into an apartment without internet. (I didn't have a phone at the time either.) And he starts dating this other girl. Yep, completely moved past me because I was lacking a phone and internet, when he knew where I worked and I told him where I lived. But then once I got a phone even while in a relationship he wanted photos. Being single and lonely, I played along sending mostly face shots and a few of me in low cut shirts. Not wanting to do the whole naked thing, but then he couldn't let up. I started feeling like a total whore and started avoiding him. Then when I got back in contact with him to sell him my computer, he started up again, and I told him off. He apologized and we became friends again. Only for him to do this shit all over again? Seriously?

Its one thing to joke around, but its completely another to be creepy about it.


~Sigh~ Moving on!

Like I said yesterday I was trying to come up with something to work on this year. And well... I didn't come up with a good New Years Resolution So I have decided to come up with a list of goals, and strive to achieve them this year. I'm still working out the details of them so hopefully by next post I'll have something substantial to write about on that. There is just so much I would like to change, but I want to be realistic about it, I hate setting unreachable goals just to be disappointed when it doesn't work out.

I'm still sore from bowling on New Years eve, but I'm pretty sure I'll survive. I've been trying to keep myself busy by cleaning the apartment (though its not really messy,) and watching way too many you tube videos. I just need to come up with something constructive to do with my time. I've read every book I own a dozen times or more, and I can't bring myself to ask for another book, money being tight lately. I have started to sleep at night more, which is an awesome thing I suppose since its really weird to be up all night and sleep all day. I've always liked the night time more, but it limits you on what you can do during the time you are awake.

Well that's all for now.
~peace love and pixie giggles~
Shuvanni